Man on the Moon

"Maybe if I was a jerk to girls,
instead of bein' nice and speakin' kind words,
then maybe it'd be okay to say then,
I wasn't a good guy to begin with."

Bad Timing

These past few weeks have been difficult, to say the least. I got all 4 wisdom teeth taken out, so I ended up just staying home for a week since I had a hard time being myself. Smiling, talking, and laughing hurt. SO LAME. I didn't wanna be around people in that condition. I'd just be torturing myself. Haha. Plus, all I could eat was blended oatmeal and cereal. It felt like a really intense diet! I think I lost weight. Again. -___-.  I'm getting better now though. Most of the pain is gone, but I still can't eat on my left side. But at least I can eat solids now! Hahah!

Things have been getting better though. 121 was awesome as always, and only getting bigger! Street Fighter tournament turned out great! Nicole and Jared's bonfire was sick! Hanging out with the SJ girls and boat rowing was fun! Memorial day picnic was cool.

AFTER that hectic weekend, I started getting sick from not getting enough rest. So here I am, trying to recover from SOMETHING ELSE now! Ughhh... this semester has just been bad for me. My basketball final is tomorrow, and I really really really don't think I can handle it. I'm out of shape, AND I'm sick. How am I supposed to keep up with everyone else, especially when I'm the shortest one on the court!? Ahhhh... so gay. I need help.

Hard Candy

I've had "things" with several girls. Not saying that I've given anything up, 'cause I haven't, if you know what I mean. Haha. But I've liked and have been liked. I've had ups and downs with past girls. I'm glad to say though, that it just made me stronger and smarter. I've been tested with potential girls as of late, and I'm lasting. I don't fall so easily, nor do I even really try to "spark" a connection with a girl. I'm happy to say that I've overcome a bad habit of thinking too much about some girl who I might consider a potential girlfriend. I don't want to go through things I shouldn't be going through, especially if I can stop it from the beginning.

Right now, I'm just focused on what God has in store for me, which are the goals He wants me to reach and the blessings of the future.

If there's any kind of girl I'd want right now, it'd be a girl who's hard to get. A girl who doesn't fall for a guy so quickly, no matter how much special attention a guy would give her, or how nice a guy is, or the washed up lines he uses. I want a smart girl who can wait and see where things goes. Because seriously, I'm tired of falling for a girl so fast, as well as girls who fall for me fast.

This is how I want it to work:

1) We become the best of friends.
2) For some reason, we begin to have feelings for each other.

Yup. Easy as one, two, ... and that's it. Hahaha.

I'll be seeing girls as nothing but friends first. Let the attraction come second.

Hey Hot Stuff

Growing up, did you think that you were good looking, or ugly? I honestly believe that everyone thinks they're a fine looking human-being growing up. I know I did. HA. Yet, our mindset begins to change when we see how others look. Once we get the chance to view other people's faces and body types we begin to make comparisons, which influence the way we think. All of a sudden, we start thinking "Wow, I'm actually ugly compared to everyone else" or maybe even "Deng, that guy is ugly compared to me." Through the negative perspective, you may start looking down upon the way you look. Naturally, you are happy with your looks, but it's when you compare yourself to others and decide for yourself what looks hot or cute and what is ugly, that you come up with your own way to describe yourself. Through the somewhat positive perspective, yet still negative in reality, we can have self-confidence, but at the cost of maybe bringing someone else down.

If we don't compare ourselves to others, we'd be fine looking specimen within our own eyes.

Remember, God made us this way for a reason. In his eyes, we're all beauty. ^_^

Focused!

I feel like nothing can touch me. Temptations aren't even close to getting to me. I'm done with wasting time and distracting myself with unecessary things that i shouldn't be doing. God is just continuing to bless me as I concentrate on Him. It's crazy. I've been on that natural high He gives us, and it just feels so good! I'm taking steps towards my craziest of dreams, and I can actually see them coming true.

Now, I just have to do my best not to keep thinking I'm "untouchable." That kinda pride might be what brings me down..

Relationships.

I guarantee that this will be something I talk about a lot on here. Not because I always think about it, because I don't. But I say this because people always seem to talk to me about this particular subject. People tend to be really open to me when it comes to this. Even if I'm not that close to them. It's weird, but I consider it a blessing that people can trust me so easily. Well, here's what I have to say right now from recent conversations...

I get slightly annoyed when people try too hard to be with someone. "Be yourself and let the attraction work on it's own." I've said this a few times this week to different people, and I truly believe it. You know that people try too hard when they do things out of the ordinary (things they normally wouldn't do for/with a person unless they were interested in them) for this other person.

I believe that if it's truly meant to happen, then God will make it happen. If we truly put our focus on Him first and not some guy or girl, we can let Him work with us just as He's working with that other person. When the time is right and perfect, He'll make the two paths cross. We don't need to try so hard to make it happen. We don't have to do anything out of the ordinary. We don't have to make it seem like were into the same type of things or talk the same way or even type (sorry but that's sad to do. Haha) the same way as that other person. If you just be yourself, and that person likes you just the way you are, then that just makes them a little more... worth it.

Don't waste time chasing anyone. Chase God, and He'll bring you exactly what you want at the right time, which is when you're truly ready.

In my case, it'll be known as the perfect girl at the perfect time. Yeah. She'll be worth the wait. ^_^

Sorry Xanga

I just had to leave Xanga and start fresh. Kinda sad hahaha. But that site brought back too many thoughts about past events that I'd rather not think about. I'll go back to it every now and then to read about other people, but as for posting, I feel like I can do more here. Who knows, it might just be the inspiration in the fact that something is new. Like me and Twitter. Haha.

"Leave your shoes at the door"

Simply, this means to lower your guard, and let it be known that everything here is my opinion and my life. Let yourself be as open-minded as possible when you read about what I have to say. And no drama, please!

Anyways, this is where my rants and thoughts will be. Thanks for reading so far. =D

PS - I was sick of Xanga offering me crap and changing my private page!